Heartbreak

You had genuine chemistry then where did it go wrong? She smiled when you smiled. You shared common interests. You both understood each other. You both clicked. Then what the fuck went wrong? 

Then you realize the mistake was yours. You were overprotective and possessive. May be she didn't like it. May be she didn't like your childish behavior. May be she didn't like your style or attitude. May be you couldn't live up to her expectations or may be you weren't made for each other at all. You realize that all those things you had planned together are now only a fantasy and you are a big fucking loser who will be alone for the rest of his life. All the dreams and aspirations were sold down the river. All those things you gave up for her don't matter anymore. You realize that this is a terrible heartbreak and you are never going to get through it. It feels as if you lost a part of your body, a part of your soul. It feels as if your heart has been broken down into a million pieces and can't be fixed just like a glass which breaks into pieces when it falls from a height. 

But then you finally realize that you have to move on. You have to change for good. You can't just cry over that thing for the rest of your life. You can't have any ifs and buts. You can't afford to regret over this. So you try to get over it. But guess what? Those memories won't let you. Those memories would haunt you for your remaining life. You will always be afraid of falling in love once again only because that one experience was enough for a lifetime.

But my friend it is her loss if she left you. Stop blaming yourself for her loss. Stop playing that fucking tape over and over again in your mind and please stop expressing your pain and regret to others. Most importantly stop ruing the fact that she couldn't be yours. May be you were possessive. But who isn't? May be you lacked style. But who cares? May be you couldn't meet her expectations. But why should you? You are not a salary or a job that doesn't meet her expectation or requirement. 

So then you are over her even if you can't. You ultimately realize that the idea of a "forever" is old school and doesn't work anymore. You realize nothing is permanent. And most importantly you stand up, raise your head, take a deep breath and embrace your future because there is so much more to life than a heartbreak. 

P.S. Let me tell you that I am not a sexist even though the language might suggest otherwise. This post has been specifically written for every guy or a girl who has had to go through a break-up in life. 

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