A minute with myself

I was about to go to sleep as my phone rang. Normally, I am not an afternoon person but here I was tired of all the things that were going around me. I was surrounded by negativity and darkness. I didn’t have any motivation to lift myself. So, I decided to sleep on a Sunday afternoon. I usually keep my phone on silent mode but this time I forgot. It was my friend calling me after a long time. She started with her usual stuff. Being in a clumsy mood, I was yet to come to terms about what was going on. But just listening to her voice made me feel good for a change. I involved myself in the conversation gradually. She said I was depressed at first but now she felt a change. As she was about to hang up, I said that she had made all the difference. After all this, I realized the impact a person’s voice can make on you. Just their voice can lift your sagging spirits. On any other day, I wouldn’t have even bothered to think about any of this but on that day, I needed just something like

“You are too good for this world. You don’t always need to be nice and kind to everybody” my mother said to me. I wondered if she wanted me to be someone I wasn’t. I know I have my needs and desires and I need to be vocal about it to other people. But I don’t want to be that narcissistic personality who is too much obsessed about himself. I just like this version of myself. Calm, composed, down-to-earth and KIND. Being a hopeless romantic (and you can figure it out from my genre of movies that I watch), I was going through my quest to search for the existence of true love. I believed that it still existed more so because of the example that my parents put in front of me. I had once fallen for someone. But that’s about it. It wasn’t reciprocated. It wasn’t love. A relationship is mutual. True love is a thing between two people. My fellow friend said that those ideas don’t work anymore. What exists is LUST. I believed him. But then one fine day, he came to me and said that he h

“I forgot what it feels like to be loved by a man. Oh god! I miss your dad so much” and she broke down in front of her daughter. She knew it was a long time ago that her husband had a cardiac arrest and passed away. But his loss was always going to be felt. After all, they were soulmates. Death is a harsh fact of life. It can’t be overlooked or neglected. The loss of a loved one is the biggest woe of human life. It feels as if the whole world is collapsing in front of you. You can’t believe what is happening. You want someone to wake you up from this terrible nightmare. Even after months and years, you sometimes feel surreal about the event. You just can’t believe they are no more here for you. My friend once told me “Nobody is permanent. People replace themselves in your life. Today is someone, tomorrow there will be someone else. Someone will take place of someone else in your life.” This statement gives us hope that even if nobody is replaceable, there are people who will