A minute with myself

I am an attractive woman in my mid-40s. I am a housewife. I am married to a big business associate. More often than not, I am in my big mansion strolling around and performing daily chores. Many times, I have to sleep without my husband. He is too busy at work. I don’t really have an idea what he does. I get too bored around the house. So, I indulge myself in lavish parties with my girlfriends. I have made a lot of them. But it feels awful sometimes that you don’t have your partner around for long. He doesn’t know I had an abortion not a long time ago. I don’t know if he is cheating on me. I hardly see him these days. I feel a lack of emotional and physical support from a man. I have been advised to divorce my man. But why should I? I would hardly benefit from it. The financial support will be gone. I hardly have any education to do a job that gives me a decent pay. The lavish lifestyle that I boast of will be gone. Seeing my monotony, my friends make me meet a charming young man. T...

Today, I am going to present my thoughts about this very sensitive and taboo subject in the Indian society. Once again, I will want to look at this with a diplomatic approach and support it with theories. I also want views from people who are reading this. We say that sex is an integral part of our lives. On an average, human beings have enough amount of sex to satisfy themselves. Almost every human has a sexual orientation i.e. a tendency to develop a sexual attraction or a romantic feeling towards another person. It’s not preferably the opposite sex that people are always attracted to. It might be their own sex as well. Yes, I am talking about the Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender (LGBT) community. Before you judge, please stay put to moral grounds and human rights. Lesbian and Gay is self-explanatory. Bisexuality is the tendency to be attracted towards both genders i.e. a woman might be attracted to men as well as women. They are in between the homosexuality and heterose...

LOVE. It is the single-most emotion that keeps humans or broadly stating, living creatures bonded together. You love your family and your family loves you, that’s the reason you are all together. Simple. Albert Einstein once wrote letters to his daughter. In it, he stated that the Universal force of Love is the greatest and strongest force in the world. Love is power, Love is gravity, Love is God and God is Love. It is this force that has the power to heal the world. In the world famous equation E=m*c^2 , if E is considered as the Energy required to heal the pain and sufferings of the world, then love multiplied by light squared is its solution and conclude that it is the most powerful force. We have been salvaged from selfishness of humanity because of this force. On the occasion of Christmas, we celebrate love in its purest form. The love of a daughter for her father, the love of a mother for her son, the love of a person for their spouse, the love between two friends and s...

I am going to tell you about my deepest and darkest fantasies. Being a young adult, I crave for a touch, a touch of a woman so seductive, so passionate. Maybe you would judge me for this but I am not afraid of that. This post is for everybody who want to embrace their sexuality and eroticism because it is only human to crave for it. As I was sad and alone because of my “single and happy to mingle” status, I decided to go to a club for the first time in a while. I had alcohol before but this was something different. It was as if I wanted to drink not for the sake of drinking but to allow myself to free. After having 5 shots of Vodka, I certainly felt the ecstasy and adrenaline. To make things better, I was accompanied by a stranger. We talked and she certainly realized I was high. I was amazed by her beautiful face and magnetic charm. I wasn’t ashamed of gazing at her. I didn’t care. I asked her if she wanted to dance. She obliged. In a while, I felt euphoric. We were looking in...

“We don’t meet people by accident; they are meant to cross our paths for a reason.” In life, you meet a lot of people. Is there a reason behind meeting someone? Do we all meet by chance? What is destiny? These questions baffle me as much as anybody. I think we all ought to have an opinion on this. So, according to me, we meet people because of some reason. They say that if you have a positive attitude and you remain happy all the time and luck is favoring you these days then chances are you are going to meet your soulmate soon. It’s like as if the whole universe immerses itself in the process of amalgamation of two souls or acquaintances. Just think of it this way. You met a person on a train. She was all soaked in sweat. So, you lend her help. You get to know that she has missed her train because she got stuck in traffic. She had to take another one ultimately. What transpired all this? Was it all chance? I don’t think so. Another minute here or there and she probably wo...

Yes, I am afraid to love. This is a confession. A couple of years ago, I loved this girl from the bottom of my heart and with all the passion. The problem was she didn’t love me back. But still I thought that one day she would ultimately return to me. For several years, I was under the impression that I was in love with her and would do anything for her. Fuck, I wasted the most precious years of my life yearning for someone who wasn’t going to be mine. It wasn’t even her fault that she didn’t like me. It is how it is. Still my heart would set itself on fire just by getting a glimpse of her. All of these years, there were not even a handful of moments when she remotely took interest in me. But being a loser that I were, I hadn’t given up hope on her. I was too mad for her. My friends told me to forget her or propose her. I said I will propose when the moment is opportune. For Christ’s sake what was I thinking? Where was my self-respect gone? I was hurting myself and wasting time o...

We always wonder what we have done with our lives. We always wonder that we haven't been successful enough. We have been let down by ourselves. We haven't been what we could have been. We often burden ourselves, pity ourselves, self-loath ourselves under expectations. This is because the society, the people around us and our loved ones have taught us that in order to be happy, in order to be content, you need to be successful; you need to be able to earn; you need to be able to spend. That's where the quality of a human life is measured not by the acts of kindness or self-sacrifice or humbleness but by achievements and fame and money. That's where materialistic approach towards life has come into existence. A man says "I can earn a living for myself; I can afford all the luxuries in the world. What else do I want?" in the modern world. Life is too short for pitying or sighing. We think we haven't done anything substantial with our lives because we hav...

According to fundamental definition, truth is the acceptance of reality or facts. But there are different versions of truth. People tend to make their own versions of truth according to their requirement. Loyalty is staying faithful to an organization or a group of people or simply to someone. These are seemingly different terms. Then why the fuss? In fact, the cold war between truth and loyalty has long been fought. People have chosen different sides according to their circumstances. Let’s delve deeper into this concept by taking an example. In the Mahabharata, Bhishma and Dhronacharya went against the truth in order to be loyal to the royal family who fed them. The reality is that people often tend to overlook the wrong doings of their loved ones because they can’t stand the ugly truth of living without them. They are blinded by love. In fact, there is a constant battle between the two. This is a type of moral dilemma and people everywhere face the issue. For instance, if a...

You had genuine chemistry then where did it go wrong? She smiled when you smiled. You shared common interests. You both understood each other. You both clicked. Then what the fuck went wrong?  Then you realize the mistake was yours. You were overprotective and possessive. May be she didn't like it. May be she didn't like your childish behavior. May be she didn't like your style or attitude. May be you couldn't live up to her expectations or may be you weren't made for each other at all. You realize that all those things you had planned together are now only a fantasy and you are a big fucking loser who will be alone for the rest of his life. All the dreams and aspirations were sold down the river. All those things you gave up for her don't matter anymore. You realize that this is a terrible heartbreak and you are never going to get through it. It feels as if you lost a part of your body, a part of your soul. It feels as if your heart has been broken down i...

KARMA simply means "what goes around, comes around". It is the idea that the sum of all the actions that one has performed over the course of one's life affects the present and ultimately decides one's fate.  But I have a bit of a pessimistic view about this theory as well. I believe that sometimes even if someone works so hard for his goals, he is not given its due reward. But this also comes to the fact that the Karma theory not only sees the amount of hard work put in, but it also takes into account how the work has been done. For instance, someone studies hard for 20 hours a day and still doesn't get the desired result compared to someone who studies for only 5 hours and achieves more than expected. The 1st person focuses on the process and doesn't plan but the 2nd one focuses on the plan as well as process and achieves the results. This way karma pays off.  Lets look further into this.  A person who has committed murders and thefts throughout his lif...

The beautiful and natural process of a baby taking birth can be termed as magical or miraculous. A child is born and raised by the mother and in that process, the child learns to speak his/her mother tongue. He/she learns and imitates the surrounding people. After some years, his parents keep him in a playschool and ultimately in a school. The process of going to a school and learning something creates an impact on the child’s mind. Throughout his childhood, he keeps on learning and imbibing thoughts that his parents and teachers have taught him. After some years, a child transforms into an adolescent and undergoes body as well as hormonal transformations. He starts developing feeling for the opposite sex or preferably even his own sex. This is the age which makes the teen most vulnerable, the age of 12-16 years. We also see the teen distancing himself from his parents at this age. This is because he favors his friends at this age. Thus, he needs a parent to be a friend at this a...

Since time immemorial, humans have been searching for the purpose of life, “why we were born”, “what is the purpose of this life”, “how did life even come into existence” and those mind-numbing questions to which we don’t have any definite answer till date. Well I am not the one who can answer these questions but I can definitely come up with my own philosophy about living life. Being a college student, I am still not familiar with the harsh facts of earning a living but I don’t want to live a life with regrets. I don’t want to end up being disappointed with my job and ultimately my life. When I am 60 and I look back at my young self, I would want to remember “the life I lived, not the money I made.” I am a kind of guy who wants to do everything. I have very unstable mind and I hope most of us at this stage of our lives have one. I always thought that I wanted to do something for mankind by offering my devotion in the field of science. But then I realized I would better want to make m...

On my last visit to Surat, I met my school mates on the day of Holi (Dhuleti) and indeed that was one of the best days of my life. It was a long time since I had met them. They usually met each-other frequently but I didn’t have that luxury obviously. Nevertheless, it was a day to remember. It was followed up by a friend’s birthday (Kashish) after a few days. So, this visit to Surat was a dream come true. I have a wish and I will fulfill it somehow. Someday, probably few years from now, me and my friends will go on an unplanned trip, say a trip to Goa. It would be such a trip that “we decided it on Thursday and we are going on Saturday”. Usually it would involve all of us to stay in Surat because only then it would be possible. After taking our necessary things, we would vanish into oblivion. After reaching there and doing the mandatory arrangements of staying and lodging, we would head out to the beach. We would spend the whole day at the beach but finally when the Sun is about to se...