A minute with myself

Read the first part,  here . *********************************************** It was getting dark. We hadn’t talked to each other in hours. We even dined separately when the 3 rd stop of the day was taken at a restaurant. It was around 10 in the night that she suddenly broke the ice. She asked casually “Hey, are you shy?” I replied “Umm…I am an introvert.” “So, you take time to open up.”   “I think so.” “Okay, tell me. Have you ever been with any girl? Any past relationships?” “Nope. I think I was in love with somebody before but it was not a relationship. It was all too one-sided.” I grinned. “Ohh” she sighed. “What happened with her?” “Well, she was too attractive.” “Huh!” She laughed. “Okay, on a serious note she never quite understood me. It’s nobody’s fault though. For years, I thought what went wrong or if something was wrong with me. But I realized that it is how it always is going to be. Nobody can change her feeling tow...

I woke up in the morning at 5 because my bus was going to arrive from the highway at 7. I realized how badly I needed a break from my routine. Thus, I decided to go the hills with a bunch of few unknown people. This was going to be one hell of a trip. I reached the highway around 6:50 and saw some buses lined together on the side of the road. I loaded my bus and saw all of the people chirping and singing Bollywood songs. All of them looked my age. The fun was just going to be doubled. I saw a girl with her ear-phones on. She was sitting alone and staring out of the window. She looked in her mid-20s, her jawbone clearly visible from the side. I always had something for the square face and so, I can say I was instantly attracted to her. She wore a black t-shirt and leggings. I went towards her and asked “Excuse me?” to which she replied nothing. “Excuse me?” I said. She now took out her ear-phones. “Sorry?” she asked. “Is this seat reserved?” I asked rather stupidl...

I was about to go to sleep as my phone rang. Normally, I am not an afternoon person but here I was tired of all the things that were going around me. I was surrounded by negativity and darkness. I didn’t have any motivation to lift myself. So, I decided to sleep on a Sunday afternoon. I usually keep my phone on silent mode but this time I forgot. It was my friend calling me after a long time. She started with her usual stuff. Being in a clumsy mood, I was yet to come to terms about what was going on. But just listening to her voice made me feel good for a change. I involved myself in the conversation gradually. She said I was depressed at first but now she felt a change. As she was about to hang up, I said that she had made all the difference. After all this, I realized the impact a person’s voice can make on you. Just their voice can lift your sagging spirits. On any other day, I wouldn’t have even bothered to think about any of this but on that day, I needed just something like...

“You are too good for this world. You don’t always need to be nice and kind to everybody” my mother said to me. I wondered if she wanted me to be someone I wasn’t. I know I have my needs and desires and I need to be vocal about it to other people. But I don’t want to be that narcissistic personality who is too much obsessed about himself. I just like this version of myself. Calm, composed, down-to-earth and KIND. Being a hopeless romantic (and you can figure it out from my genre of movies that I watch), I was going through my quest to search for the existence of true love. I believed that it still existed more so because of the example that my parents put in front of me. I had once fallen for someone. But that’s about it. It wasn’t reciprocated. It wasn’t love. A relationship is mutual. True love is a thing between two people. My fellow friend said that those ideas don’t work anymore. What exists is LUST. I believed him. But then one fine day, he came to me and said that he h...

“I forgot what it feels like to be loved by a man. Oh god! I miss your dad so much” and she broke down in front of her daughter. She knew it was a long time ago that her husband had a cardiac arrest and passed away. But his loss was always going to be felt. After all, they were soulmates. Death is a harsh fact of life. It can’t be overlooked or neglected. The loss of a loved one is the biggest woe of human life. It feels as if the whole world is collapsing in front of you. You can’t believe what is happening. You want someone to wake you up from this terrible nightmare. Even after months and years, you sometimes feel surreal about the event. You just can’t believe they are no more here for you. My friend once told me “Nobody is permanent. People replace themselves in your life. Today is someone, tomorrow there will be someone else. Someone will take place of someone else in your life.” This statement gives us hope that even if nobody is replaceable, there are people who will ...

They say that “men are from Mars and women are from Venus”. I never quite understood the logic behind the statement. It only implies that we are from different planets (literally, indeed)! Apart from the biological and physiological differences that we have, we also differ in mentality. In different life situations, we usually react differently. While men may come with rational and practical solutions to a problem, women tend to think emotionally. This has more or less nothing to do with physiological difference. It’s the way we’re brought up by our parents and society. But the thumb rule is, we can’t live without each other. Here, I’m not only implying romantically but also otherwise. Most independent women at some point of their life need a companion (and vice versa). I read an article stating that women are now capable of getting pregnant without a man with scientists claiming that they can make artificial sperm in lab and so women are better off without men. I would count...

I am an attractive woman in my mid-40s. I am a housewife. I am married to a big business associate. More often than not, I am in my big mansion strolling around and performing daily chores. Many times, I have to sleep without my husband. He is too busy at work. I don’t really have an idea what he does. I get too bored around the house. So, I indulge myself in lavish parties with my girlfriends. I have made a lot of them. But it feels awful sometimes that you don’t have your partner around for long. He doesn’t know I had an abortion not a long time ago. I don’t know if he is cheating on me. I hardly see him these days. I feel a lack of emotional and physical support from a man. I have been advised to divorce my man. But why should I? I would hardly benefit from it. The financial support will be gone. I hardly have any education to do a job that gives me a decent pay. The lavish lifestyle that I boast of will be gone. Seeing my monotony, my friends make me meet a charming young man. T...